"I'll eat right tomorrow."
We've all said it. Right now, though, tomorrow is kicking my big butt. It's not even so much the cravings, which are a small part I must admit, it's just that junk food is so much easier than cooking and eating right and I'm just so damned tired.
Not to mention I ate right for an entire week and I gained 3 lbs AND I still haven't picked up my thyroid medication from the pharmacy, so I've been off it for about oh a week now... Just sort of takes all of the motivation out of it. Except today I got the rare privilege of seeing photos of myself from about 4 years ago. I look like a completely different person. I don't even know myself anymore and it scares me.
The thing that really scares me is that 4 years ago I was a good looking girl, with a decent figure and I didn't even know it. I mean I wasn't heroine addict model thin but I was far from buying my clothes in the plus department. And now, here I sit, staring at those photos wondering where I went. I mean 4 years isn't long. And yeah I know, screwed up thyroid will make you gain weight, blah blah blah. It doesn't make me feel any more attractive when I pull a pair of pants out of the dryer, think they must be my son's because they look too small to be mine and when I really take a look find out that they're an old pair of my husband's... Who use to wear his pants hanging off his ass like a surfer dude.. And was 6'4" and 220lbs when I met him.
I want to be that girl again. I want to feel like I look decent in a skirt, or better yet a sleeveless top. I want to know my jeans are the smallest in the house again, or at least the room.. I want to really start eating right tomorrow.
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Weight Goals
1 month goal: Lose 10 lbs
3 month goal: lose 15 - 20 lbs
6 month goal: lose 25 lbs
1 year goal: lose 35 lbs
Fitness Goals
1 week goal: go for a walk 3 nights
2 week goal: go for a walk 5 nights
3 week goal: start yoga 2x week
4 week goal: walk 5 nights a week, yoga 3x week
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4 comments:
Love yourself enough to choose this. :-) You deserve it.
How about that? I just posted one of these "time to get off my inceasingly fat ass and DO something about this" posts only last Friday! A blog-friend and I have agreed to post each Friday.
I hope you keep posting. I'll be back!
Irreverentmama - I'd love for you and possibly your friend to contribute your Weekly update here as well! I think it would be a wonderful journey to share, through ups AND downs because it's important for us BBB'ers to know we're not alone with the downs. :) Is there an email I can contact you at?
Good luck.
Just dropped by to thank you for comment on Is America Burning.
Come back anytime.
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